Sunday, 28 April 2013

Always There - (Poem 2009)

I have lived so long with pain,
It rips and tears at my body,
Sharp and relentless,
I know
It will always be there.

I try to be strong,
I smile as expected,
But inside I'm breaking

When you look at me,
All you see
Is the outside,
A shell,
My disability.

I hide the agony
Deep inside,
A body that betrays me,
And it will
Always be there.

I am a person just like you,
I laugh and love,
I cry and need,
When I'm cut
I bleed.

I wish it was easy
And wish it would change,
The world still thinks
I'm strange.

Sometimes in darkness,
I want to scream
At tired
Frustration's flame.

And then I want the world to know,
Deep down,
I am the same. 


Thursday, 11 April 2013

Confessions of a Tea Junkie (Poem - 1997)

Alright, I did it!
Went shopping for teabags at midnight,
If I don't have one in the morning,
I don't feel right.

Forgot to buy the ones
I asked you for,
I was tempted to drain the one
Dropped on the floor!

Alright, I did it!
When we went out,
I wanted to know
If there was a kettle about!

After wandering for hours                                                                           
 I'd built up a thirst,

You didn't need to ask,
If it was tea or shops first!

Alright, I did it!
Deprived of my drug,
I thought about using one
Found in the plug!

You know its been ages,
I am scratchy
And short,
Coming between me
And my tea,
Is a version of sport!                                                                        

 I know I'm terrible,
And I know it's tough,
But if I don't get the hot stuff,
I feel really rough!                                                                             

I know you don't get it,
You can't understand,
Why I'm sitting here,
With shaking hands.

Now we have teabags
After nearly a day,
So Heaven help the person
Who gets in my way!

Slow minutes later,
I'm holding my mug,
Gripping it tightly
Feels like a hug.

Pausing for a moment,
I breathe in the steam,
Those first blissful sips
Feel like a dream.

The result is instant,
 Muscles relax,
My body is sealing,
And mending its cracks.

You can forget chocolate,
And forget a kiss,
I'm ashamed to admit
That my paradise,
Is this!'

(Images - 'Google' of course)!

Wednesday, 3 April 2013

'Prove It!' - Thousands of People Finally Wake Up to Challenge Duncan Smith

A petition urging Iain Duncan Smith to prove his smug comment that he could live on just £53 per week has become one of the fasted ever growing petitions. At the time of this blog it has seen over 300,000 signatures.
Such was the strength of feeling against Iain Duncan Smith’s comments, the petition took off like a rocket, and the signatures are still rising. I am not surprised.

On the ‘Today’ programme, prior to the creation of the petition, Mr Duncan Smith was confronted by a working benefit claimant who stated that since his benefits were cut, he now has only £53 a week to live on.
John Humphries then asked the minister the question we all wanted answered, ‘Could you live on £53 a week? By the way, £53 pounds a week works out at about £7.50 each day.
Mr Duncan Smith quickly replied ‘if I had to, I would’. ‘Go on then’ I thought.

Evidently, I wasn’t the only one!

In their thousands people have signed a petition challenging Mr Duncan Smith to put his money where his mouth is, and do just that.

It is the fastest rising petition on ‘Change.org’ to date, and when I proudly signed it yesterday evening, 60,000 people had done it before me.

Do I think he’ll do it? No, I don’t think he’ll have the guts. In fact, as I type this up, I have just discovered that the man himself has dismissed the petition as ‘a stunt!’ – He wishes! We are deadly serious actually. There is no ‘stunt’ about it!

I guess doing something like that wouldn’t really teach him anything anyway. It’s a bit different when you know you can go back to your millions at the end of it, but I’d still like to see him try!
In case you are wondering, Mr Duncan Smith earns £1,581.02 a week, which equals £225 a day after tax, and his wife Betsy is from a multi millionaire aristocratic family.

I doubt Mr Duncan Smith, and most other cabinet ministers, could even understand the concept of budgeting with such small amounts of money, never mind the anxiety and hardship caused by wondering how you will feed your family – and pay for everything else as well.

If he did understand he wouldn’t have said it, and he definitely wouldn’t expect anyone to do it! It doesn’t take a maths genius to work that out. Despite what the minister says it isn’t really possible – not without a great deal of struggle anyway.

We know that food costs have gone up, heating, petrol – the entire cost of living. In fact even on the barest essentials, it is nigh on impossible. Where is the ability to have any sort of life?
Now we come to what I think is the crux of the problem.
The idea that a bunch of elitist, millionaire and multi millionaire ‘career politicians’ are qualified to make decisions which affect ‘everyday’ people. It’s ridiculous!

I doubt many of them have any idea what things actually cost because they’ve never had to worry about it. After all, I read they get a £200 a week allowance for groceries alone.
They live in an entirely different world, where reality, it seems to me, doesn’t gets a look in!

Why are we letting these people make decisions for us?

We need people in parliament who have lived a ‘real’ life, and at least have some idea of what it’s like to struggle, not people who think the poorest and most vulnerable in society are lazy ‘scroungers’ who just need to work harder!

Despite what the government says, the fact is that in an ever expanding number of cases people need benefits to top up their income.

When wages are so low and there aren’t enough jobs (even for those who are able to work) benefits are a necessity, not a luxury – and definitely not a lifestyle choice.

Mr Duncan Smith’s words and the ‘scrounger’ rhetoric surrounding benefit claimants as a whole is harmful, callous, cruel, and based on doctored figures.

Disabled people like me ‘work hard’ to get through the day against limitations and heartbreak no one can imagine.We need benefits to survive. It’s not a choice, and it’s not a choice for those with jobs that still need benefits to top up their income.
Working hard isn’t always possible, and even when it is (as this case proves), it does not always leave you with enough money to pay the bills.

Personally, I’d like to see Mr Duncan Smith live on £53 a week for a year or more, although I know it’s not realistic to think that he will.
 He should be put in a situation where relying on his money and privileges is simply not possible. I think it is the only way he will truly understand the ridiculousness of his words.

If one good thing has come out of this situation over the last couple of days though, is that it has woken up the anger of a growing number of people. People who have finally come to realise that there is no ‘skiver’ vs ‘striver', only the rich vs everyone else.
Campaigners have tried for well over a year to make people realise how out of touch, unthinking and cruel this government are to the most vulnerable in society.

What’s more it comes from Iain Duncan Smith’s own words. If you ask me, he clearly has no clue! I am hoping that comments such as his will prompt people to look deeper into what’s really going on under their noses.

Thank you Mr Duncan Smith for motivating people and making them challenge you, when we struggled to do so.

Long may it continue!